BACKOFF! it's my puzzle!

So. I LOVE PUZZLES. period. They are so relaxing, and give me time to think.
and what I have realized in the time that i've been working on my most recent puzzle, is that i am a very independent person. I like my alone time. Where i can just sit. relax. think.
I like when I can just be alone and sing to myself or whatever. and
doing my puzzle.

I've realized that I really hate asking people for help. I usually try to figure it out on my own, or I will ask someone. But that's only when i'm feeling lazy or totally confused. I like painting, and playing the piano. and
doing my puzzle.

I love being with people! don't get my wrong! I'm not one of those freaks who never come out of their room. I Love going out and talking and having dinner with people or whatever. Or going on vacations and adventures to the mall or Disneyland. going to theatre is soooo much fun! =D but I love
doing my puzzle.

Independent. that's Me.

Choir Retreat '10

The choir retreat this year has been the most touching time in my life. Our choir always looks forward to Worship most, and this year we came wanting God to just touch us, that right there is sooooo overwhelming. God worked in me. I cried for over 5 hours this weekend. God was truly in the room with us. I felt him. I saw pictures racing through my mind of him and angels and hell and demons and the end times and I have been cleansed. The scariest thing for me was when my choir teacher, Mrs. Clark, came over to me while I was worshiping and she put her hand on my heart and laid out all the sin and everything I was thinking right there and then. Ya, I was on my face 2 seconds later. Crying. I was praying, and while I was doing this, I felt the demon literally being pushed out of me, and I saw in my mind it going down, straight to the pit of hell and burning up. I cried for quite a while after that. God has restored me. He has broken the backbone of this sin that was chaining me down and keeping me away from Him. I am restored. The visions i saw, I drew and wrote things I felt in my spirit. They look horrible cause I was crying and shaking and it was dark, but i felt God. I never wanted to leave that night.He is sooo real. No one will EVER be able to take me away from Him. I come back from this retreat with a whole new outlook. God is real.

Listen to: Holy by Matt Gilman and Cory Asbury, just do it.

ReConnections

Disneyland was amazing. I went last thursday with Raquel Westlake, AN AMAZING GIRL! we met at ctg in June 2009, but we didn't really start talking till the end of July when we started doing lights and sound for WWTLISYW. I am soo glad God brought her into my life. She is the best friend anyone could ever have! We kind of grew apart for a while though. But we went to Disneyland last Thursday, just me and her. Katy bailed. We bonded like crazy. She's someone you can go to, in any mood and you'll feel 10x's better 5 minutes into the convo. Well on our way to disneyland was amazing. =] we sang the whole way there! and the whole way back! hahaha! my voice was gone at the end of the day.

We got to disneyland and I got to be the first one to take her to California Adventure EVER! =D that was fun! then we went to disneyland. this whole time, we never had an akward moment. There's not a whole lot of people i could go to disneyland with and not have an akward moment all day. Well she was feeling sick, so we went home. When she dropped me off at my house, she said "Love Ya." I like how she can say "Love ya" and it doesn't have to be akward or sexual like most people would probably take it. Were just good friends. Amazing friends now. and i can honestly say, "I Love Ya Too Raquel."

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There's this girl i know... talented, beautiful, inspirational, a life-saver, smart, outgoing, creative, thoughtful, she is truely amazing. It hurts me sooo much when shes mad at me. She has so much influence on sooo many people that i don't think she realizes sometimes. I just wish she could step into someone she's touched shoes and see how much she means to them. So many people look up to her and want to be like her. I just wish she knew how much she means to me.

Friends?

Friends are hard to find sometimes.... a true friend? nearly impossible...
i've found my true friend... and we're nothing alike? its the wierdest things... were practically oppisites. Yet, we can hang out for ours and never get bored or have an akward moment?
we can talk for ours? i don't know how? but we do. She is the girl i would die for. shes all i have.

i have a couple of friends that aren't friends i would tell everything to? but still good friends. but in the past, i've put this fake smile on to try to make friends and finally feel like i fit in here. but, i don't know if i do? i know i'll have a place in heaven. i know it. but here? all i have is my one true friend. maybe in the future? i'll make some more really good friends! but when im auround people here, i just feel so akward? i don't know how to act and move and talk. and it drives me crazy! all day im pushing, fighting, clawing to get through this wall that holds me back from just relaxing and enjoying being with people! but i don't know if i ever can? maybe i'll be living with it for the rest of my life. I hope someone can see past it like my friend can. For now? i guess i just need to keep fighting.

Blogging?

ok... first of all? i have NO clue what i'm doing. =] so if this is super-lame? sorry... =]
so first off, a little about me. i'm a guy. 6'1''. Dirty-Blonde. Hazel eyes. Size 12 feet. 145 pounds. Skinny. Artistic. Quiet. Christian. Happy. Thinker. yaa... hahaha
So today i went to lunch with some old friends at kyoto sushi. They were old friends from Cinderella; Raquel, Kelly, Katie, Maggie, and Caroline. It was AMAZIng catching up with them and just talking about anything and everything! i miss seeing them all the time and talking to them. they're all so easy to talk to and are always there for me. This Blog Is Lame... btw... hahaha! umm yaa... so we went to starbucks and saw this guy with a HHHUUUGGGGEEEE wart on his face! and we saw this old CREEPER that had long, gray, frizzy hair that walked over to someone car and hopped inside with this mom and little kid... we were laughing so hard? hahaha! then these 2 girls with mcdonalds came walking out of corner bakery? random? and then the dad was in starbucks and he had black slicked back hair.......... random family? hahaha! well yaa... then we went to menchies! =] and we had yogurt! can you say fatties? yupp! that was us... hhahaha! then me and Kelly went racing over to Valencia mac. we got there at 5:53 and we went inside and the guy said it was a 15 minute thing? so they couldn't do it... she has to go back on monday now? cause they guy is a jerk and wouldn't stay open an extra 10 minutes to help... so WOW Valencia Mac... wow... well we left pissed... hahaa! and Kelly brought me home. Now i'm home... bored... ping pong was fun though! me and my momma played for a while! i beat her... no matter what she says...
sooo i'm done... ts lame... i can see... well i'll try again later... thanks for reading! =]