Wow.

Wow. that was like a stab in the heart.
im seriously hurt.
i don't know what to do now.
but we'll see.
your kind of a jerk to me now?
i thought i was just being nice.
i miss you.
you mean a lot to me.
but i guess i don't mean much to you.
whatevs.
we'll see.

Where'd you go?

I miss her so much. She doesn't even seem to notice me anymore? is he really that important that you? that you have to blow off all your friends? i really miss you. we never text anymore. We hardly talk. I just want to know you again. We used to have so much fun. What happened? We were BEST friends for so long? what happened? He doesn't even treat you right. Does it feel like abuse? cause that's sure what it looks like. When you need me, i'll be right here waiting for you.

Driving.

Driving is just about the only thing i am looking forward to in this next year. oh! and Italy! but thats only for a week. Driving though. it's like a little peice of heaven.
Freedom.
Maturity.
I'm so looking forward to growing up. but im sad at the same time. that im just not living today to the fullest, instead im just looking toward the future. Running as fast as i can through this time of my life where i am struggling. But the struggling is where you grow. I just think im not happy now, but i will be in the future. But im scared. scared that it won't get better. that i'll just stay sad. looking forward to all the good things i want to happen. until I get too old where i'm going to start looking to the past too much. which looking forward to something isn't bad. it just can't be your primary focus.
I'm scared.
Driving.
I have to slow down my life. I want to be able to be able to stop when i want to and go faster when i want to. which i think everyone does at atleast one point in their lives. But just slow down Presston. Slow down. Time is racing by you. just be happy. trust in God. He will see you though. Be happy. Stop worrying about the past and the future. you need to just be yourself. you can do it. really. I know the great things you can do! but i know the bad things you can do too.
just trust.
Mindpower.

Driving though. Im really excited! not my primary focus though. Driving. it is the time when my parents won't have to worry about me 24/7 and not being there baby anymore. Im pretty independent already, so i think i'll be fine when im outta here. Driving. I can finally be in a relationship and not feel like a little akward kid. I can commit and feel like a part of it. Driving. I can actually see my friends from school this summer.

Exctied and happy.
Living in the moment.
Driver.
That's Me.